I almost couldn't do it. As I hurried home early from work to pack and high-tail it out of town, I called Londo, my sister, and a couple friends. She's still so young, I worried, maybe too young to leave her. What about nursing? I will bring my pump, but it's not the same. Won't she miss me and be miserable without me? And what if she doesn't and isn't???
"How can I do it?" I fretted over the phone. "How can I go out of town and leave the baby?"
I got a variety of responses from "You could just bring the baby" to "She and Londo will be fine without you for a couple days" and everything in between.
I finally realized that I needed to just go. Stop thinking about it, pack my bags and GO. My friend needs help, and I want to help her. Also, I need this break. I love my little girl more than I have words to say (and it's rare I don't have words). But two nights away would be good for us all.
So I did it. I left yesterday evening, and I spent my first night away from the Pumpkin. It was also Daddy's fist time completely solo (which apparently went pretty well). It was not as difficult as I thought, getting a full night's sleep. But boy, do I miss her!
2 comments:
It IS leaving your baby, isn't it? I had a two day business trip when my Pumpkin was 6 months old. I stressed about it, but she did great with Daddy, and I did fine, too. You're right- its good for everyone.
Let me tell you that I'm totally jealous. I too love my little one but i have been trying to get away to visit a friend that moved three hours away and I just don't want to bring him with me.
I'm getting a lot of guilt about it though and I'm not sure where that is coming from. I certainly don't think that my husband actually believes that I can't wait to escape them. I think he's scared to be left alone because he has never had to do all that I do for Boog. Oh well, maybe my time will come soon.
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